In the cemetery of a high school I found decaying souls embodied in breathing corpses.
Few were truly living, but most were as if statues in their courses.
It seems that the virus of the media has comfortably settled in.
It was no longer a vagabond in a temporary inn.
Drugs, sex, and alcohol!
Those were chief topics of every study-hall.
 
The hype was on getting high
as if you need the substance to get by.
They no longer rely on the self for joy.
They treat life as if it is a toy.  
It’s all about #YOLO!
It’s all about flying solo!
 
On them I cannot lay the blame,
for degrading music has risen to power and fame.
women are reduced to body parts
and men are shamed for using their smarts.
It’s all about how you look, not how you behave.
Slavery was abolished, yet almost everyone is a slave.
 
In the land of freedom, I found slavery at its most,
when I looked at the wounds and found nothing in which I can boast.
They were longing to be free.
Wondering who they should be.
So they looked on TV,
but reality they could not see.
 
Until finally, their real self,
was put on the shelf.
Hidden for no one to see,
because to themselves, they were as imperfect as could be.
 
You wonder why I want to be an educator?
There is no greater enemy than a self-hater.
I want these kids to know who they are,
because they only need to look in the mirror to see a star.

There are times in the Bible where people would come to Jesus and they would ask Him to cure someone and they would say "if you are willing..." and Jesus' response was "I am willing" the reaction in that case is a joyful one, but there is a question that arises.
What would we do if His answer was "I am not willing" ?
1. React violently, in a sense we lose our trust and hope in God. Even though He may have done many things that proved His love on a daily level.
2. Thank Him for through His mysterious wisdom we know that He is just and kind. When He refuses our request as it is requested it is not because He doesn't love us, for everything He does is through love. It is because to move on to the next spiritual course we must go through the training and the conditioning. When an athlete is faced with a challenge he/she doesn't give up but continues to callenge himself to the fullest extent.
When God says "I am not willing" we should know that it is the time where we will spiritually Handle more. During this time we move from being able to lift a 100 pounds to 150. We age says I am not willing, He is not saying I don't love you. For as He tells Saint Faustina " if my death on the course doesn't prove to you that I love you, what will?" His love is never to be doubted.
 
Yes, I expect Him to heal those I bring to Him the way I want because I have faith that He can. But because I have faith in Him, I must also have faith in His time and His methodology. There were mAny blind people that Jesus healed, but each with a different method. So He said open and they opened . To others he took mud and spit and put it on their eyes and still to others He lead them away and them opened their eyes.
 
So the good Lord, has His methodology. He knows that the time of healing needed for this person and everyone around them.
 
"I am not willing" sometimes is the best form of healing. Jesus isn't just interested in healing the body, He is far more concerned with healing the soul. Not just the soul of the person asking for Healing, but for everyone that person  encounter. Primarily their family. The spiritual healing, will become a stronger testimony than that of the physical. For example the 10 people with leprosy, only one came back glorifying God and thanking Jesus. He received spiritual healing and this healing was transferred to everyone around them. Their live was transformed not by their physical healing, although that was the start off point, but when they recognized the hand of God.
 
Very often we look at the crosses before us and say what Peter said to Jesus "God forbid" but Jesus knowing the value of the cross for humanity did not view it as a punishment as Peter did, but rather rebuked Peter saying, "depart from me satan". The cross is not a punishment, it is a gift that holds a value that resonates beyond, the self to the society.
 
yet the hope remains that answer will be "I will" rather than the not, and even if time passes our hope will remain the same,for knows the timing as He knew with Lazarus. He waited after He heard their cries until the time was right so instead of healing He may raise him from the dead. So, we too hope for same thing from the one who is capable. Lord I have faith, heal us. 
 
What if the answer is not " I am not willing " in the first place? What if the answer is " I am willing, but not the way you except?" We must not place the infinite within the limits of the finite, In this case we would be replacing the capacity of the creator with that of the created, of which we will reach the extremities of errors for the creation will never meet up to the level of the creator.